Dreams

When I dream, I dream of you.

I dream of the times I’ve spent holding you, the times I’ve spend just simply breathing the same air as you.

I love the times we spend not doing anything, just being with each other. I hate the distance when you’re not around, yet I love the anticipation of knowing that I will see you again.
The first time I knew I loved you; I knew I was happy, not because you loved me, not because there was a possibility of me being yours.
I was simply happy to have you in my life.

And if I was only to know you for an hour or a lifetime I was blessed to have you at all.
You are my vice, my passion, my muse, my control, my release, my heart, my soul, you are my life.
And if one day I am to be without you, I will be sad, I will hurt. I will cry and I will mourn.

I will be incomplete for a time.

But I will survive, because in knowing you I’ve grown into a stronger person. I’ve become the kind of man that loves, and is patient, and listens, and is willing to let go if that is what is necessary.
If I am to lose you, I will feel as if the world has ceased to exist, my mind will crumble, my heart will be as coal, and my soul will be alone.

Yet I will survive, because through knowing you, I know strength; through knowing you, I know survival against all odds; through knowing you, I know acceptance; and through knowing you, I know myself.

Just the same, I hope the day never comes that I no longer have you by my side.

I want you to be my rock, and I yours. I want you to be my friend, and I yours. I want you to be my lover, and I yours. I want you to be mine, and I yours.

Your compassion, your sweetness, your understanding, your love for life, your determination, your beauty, your kindness, your passion.

You.

One of my favourite lines in a love song is simply this:
“I long to see the sunlight in your hair.”
Well, I long to see the sunlight in your hair, I long to see the wind blow through it, I long to see the sunlight shine in harmony with your natural radiance. I long to see you. I long to hear your voice, I long to hold you, I long to kiss you, I long to continue to know you.

But for now, all I can do is wait, and be patient, until you come back to me. For now I must rely on my dreams.

For when I dream, I dream of you.

- Michael Reid